ribsAnorexia Nervosa: A disease which manifests in the relentless starvation of the body and the mind; a denial of a basic human need; a refusal to satisfy the gnawing hunger for nutrition.

It never ceases to amaze me then, how an illness defined by such dreadful starvation, manages to devour so much.

And make no mistake, whilst the body turns to bone and the organs starve to standstill, Anorexia is eating.

It eats your flesh and then gnaws at the bone. It sucks on your brain until your mind is an empty city, a fragile ruin where thoughts move slowly and decisions make tears.

It devours your life, your work, your relationships; chews up the potential for a future and spits it out in a dark mess of would have beens and might haves.

It feeds on the hearts of your loved ones; a painful suckling in the darkness of the night, a sharp breaking away in the cold light of the morning.

Like a parasite, it swells and fattens as its cotton – mouthed host withers.

And it only stops, when it has eaten everything; from the body, to the life, to the dreams of its victim.

You won’t find this definition of Anorexia in the BMJ, or the DSM or the ICD.

But I swear, this is one of the truest definitions and criterion you’ll find.

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